depression

[CavySlaveJambo]

I refused the tablets from the doc. Not sure if that's a good thing though. Didn't want to be a blubbering happy all the time lune. Anyone ?

 

Nah they don't do that. The idea is they make you functional. They don't always work like that though.

 

They never work properly for anxiety for me as 90% of my anxiety can be traced back from sensory overload which is due to being autistic. The rest of it is (social) communication related. Generally it is easier by being in control of everything. (Control/Rigidity is a very autistic way to manage anxiety). Oh and I am possibly Bipolar as well (spring = hypomania; december = depressed) and they tend to send me into a real mess.

[davemclaren]

 

 

I refused antidepressants because I was scared of them. I was scared they would just keep me trudging along at a not good but not bad level and that I'd never be really happy. It's been almost a year since I was at my lowest and I'm feeling much like I did this time last year. Low self esteem, feeling like I do everything wrong, crying all the time, sometimes I don't even know why, staying in bed and hiding under the covers, ignoring uni work, snapping at people. I know I need to go back to the doctors again because it's putting a strain on relations at home and tbh probably my relationship as well, but the thought of anti-depressants scares me. I was on the list for self help but nobody ever got back to me and because I go through phases of being ok I never chased it up. I had a bout in February, one in May around cup final time and one in July/August but none have been as bad as this one which has lasted close to a month now. My mum and boyfriend are urging me to go to the doctors but it scares me but deep down I know I should because this stubborness is probably making things worse.

 

You're mum and boyfrienf are right. You do need to go and get help from your doctor. Good luck.

[jambogee1974]

 

 

I refused antidepressants because I was scared of them. I was scared they would just keep me trudging along at a not good but not bad level and that I'd never be really happy. It's been almost a year since I was at my lowest and I'm feeling much like I did this time last year. Low self esteem, feeling like I do everything wrong, crying all the time, sometimes I don't even know why, staying in bed and hiding under the covers, ignoring uni work, snapping at people. I know I need to go back to the doctors again because it's putting a strain on relations at home and tbh probably my relationship as well, but the thought of anti-depressants scares me. I was on the list for self help but nobody ever got back to me and because I go through phases of being ok I never chased it up. I had a bout in February, one in May around cup final time and one in July/August but none have been as bad as this one which has lasted close to a month now. My mum and boyfriend are urging me to go to the doctors but it scares me but deep down I know I should because this stubborness is probably making things worse.

 

 

 

I think going to the doctors ASAP would be best alot better than trying to self help.

This thread has opened my eyes abit as to the way I feel sometimes. I have a good job not to hard not to easy and not a bad wage, I have a great Gf,a decent house, I don't live with my daughter but I see her on a very regular basis and I'm on talking terms with her mum. For weeks on end I'm a happy person fooling about having a laugh really in love with my Gf then boom I feel lifeless, I start looking at ways to get away from everyone, start getting real narkey and short tempered. Look at my Gf as if to say why am I here with you you don't excite me, work get tiresome and I get really lethargic all this for no reason what so ever. This can last as little as a couple of days to I think the last time it lasted near on 3 weeks. It's horrible. I like others was prescribed low anti-depressants about 5 years ago but to no effect. I'm trying a new hobby so I'm hoping that brings me out if it.

[chuck1874]

Pull shapes speak to your doctor about certain tablets. Rather than getting the ones to take take during the day get ones that you take at night an hour before your bed. That way they work in your system when your sleeping. Although you will be groggy in the morning plus it'll take a couple of weeks for your brain to get used to them they work better in the long run. Ask about mirtazipine or amitriptyline they worked for my partner but citralopam sent her loopy and suicidal.

[peter_hmfc]

The thing that I find gets to me the most is that I can't ever place what triggers the bouts. I could have all the reasons in the world to be happy but instead I won't be able to shake the feeling of feeling really down, unmotivated about life and just wanting to curl up in bed. But I can never place exactly what is making me feel like that.

 

I don't know if it matters but if it's worth anything I've seen your picture on here (think it was the 5-1 thread) and I think you're really really cute.

[peter_hmfc]

To Dusk_Till_Dawn: I agree. The thing about ?going for a drink? is that I don?t drink, seemingly the only person in Scotland who doesn?t. I?ve never had the real reason because I never get to stage of socialising, and also don?t really want to force myself to drink just for others, but have accepted it?s a social hindrance. I get on with people but just never develops to outside of the workplace.

 

To Alan Partridge: I can?t really afford to leave home for uni, but am still considering it slightly. College work has definitely increased in importance for me though.

 

To MalkyMcFrench: That?s actually the nicest thing anyone?s said to me in ages, in a good way. It?s not just the arseholes who do that, but the feeling of rejection from people who don?t seem to want to be friends, ie everyone. Thanks a lot for the offer as well. The same goes for Walter Kidd and Boof.

 

To marcus: Christ it?s been years since I?ve even had a kick about, literally years. I?ll look into it but am very time restricted, especially as Thursdays I have a night class until 8:15. Thanks for the offer, I really am crap at football though.

 

Thanks so much to everyone who even took the time to read my posts and utmost thanks to those who offered support and advice, much appreciated!

[Floyd]

To Dusk_Till_Dawn: I agree. The thing about ?going for a drink? is that I don?t drink, seemingly the only person in Scotland who doesn?t. I?ve never had the real reason because I never get to stage of socialising, and also don?t really want to force myself to drink just for others, but have accepted it?s a social hindrance. I get on with people but just never develops to outside of the workplace.

 

To Alan Partridge: I can?t really afford to leave home for uni, but am still considering it slightly. College work has definitely increased in importance for me though.

 

To MalkyMcFrench: That?s actually the nicest thing anyone?s said to me in ages, in a good way. It?s not just the arseholes who do that, but the feeling of rejection from people who don?t seem to want to be friends, ie everyone. Thanks a lot for the offer as well. The same goes for Walter Kidd and Boof.

 

To marcus: Christ it?s been years since I?ve even had a kick about, literally years. I?ll look into it but am very time restricted, especially as Thursdays I have a night class until 8:15. Thanks for the offer, I really am crap at football though.

 

Thanks so much to everyone who even took the time to read my posts and utmost thanks to those who offered support and advice, much appreciated!

 

Glad it's helping mate, if you are toiling to get counselling via the NHS, drop me a pm and I will pass on the details of the company my work use, free sessions within 7 days of contact available to family & friends of employees.

 

Be aware, counselling doesn't suit everyone but it might help.

 

[Dusk_Till_Dawn]

 

 

I don't know if it matters but if it's worth anything I've seen your picture on here (think it was the 5-1 thread) and I think you're really really cute.

 

Pull shapes, you've got yourself a date

[Shapes]

 

 

I don't know if it matters but if it's worth anything I've seen your picture on here (think it was the 5-1 thread) and I think you're really really cute.

 

Thank you Peter, that's really nice of you.

 

Really hope you get through things because I know how it feels to be alone and its not a nice feeling. You seem like a good guy though so im confident you'll come through this with good friends. You dont need your old friends. Mine did the same to me because I didn't go on a weekend to Newcastle. One of them sent me a message calling me selfish for not going, despite knowing what was going on. It hurt at the time but I realised I didn't need people like that. I have a handful of really good friends from school and uni and I've met a couple of really good friends this year as well who put up with me when I feel like im being unbearable. Good luck with everything. There will always be people here to listen, just pm

Edited November 16, 2012 by Pull Shapes

[Floyd]

 

 

Glad it's helping mate, if you are toiling to get counselling via the NHS, drop me a pm and I will pass on the details of the company my work use, free sessions within 7 days of contact available to family & friends of employees.

 

Be aware, counselling doesn't suit everyone but it might help.

 

 

Meant to say, it's all 100% confidential between the person and the counsellor, no reports back to anyone or anything said to anyone.

[peter_hmfc]

To Dusk_Till_Dawn: Haha no, I saw she was with someone, I was just being nice.

 

To Pull Shapes: That?s awful what your supposed ?friends? did to you, but great to see you made new ones who care for you. I?m not hopeful or optimistic about making friends myself though.

 

To Floyd: Thank. I?ve considered counselling and while it might work for some, I?m not too hopeful myself. The reason is while it might make you feel a bit better, I might not feel comfortable face to face, and also that it wouldn?t actually solve the problem, just be a way to vent.

 

Thanks all!

[shaun.lawson]

To Dusk_Till_Dawn: Haha no, I saw she was with someone, I was just being nice.

 

To Pull Shapes: That?s awful what your supposed ?friends? did to you, but great to see you made new ones who care for you. I?m not hopeful or optimistic about making friends myself though.

 

To Floyd: Thank. I?ve considered counselling and while it might work for some, I?m not too hopeful myself. The reason is while it might make you feel a bit better, I might not feel comfortable face to face, and also that it wouldn?t actually solve the problem, just be a way to vent.

 

Thanks all!

 

Peter, Peter, Peter...

 

Counselling isn't just "a way to vent". Counselling will help you understand exactly what's going on here. And counsellors don't do that by giving opinions themselves; they do it by just asking you questions, which will have the affect of steadily clearing the fog from your mind.

 

For what it's worth, I think everyone should see a counsellor. Absolutely everyone. The continued taboo surrounding it - especially in the UK - bemuses me. The most important thing is you find someone you can establish a good rapport with; but ruling it out given everything you've said on this thread just constitutes you putting barriers up and making excuses, mate.

[gordiegords]

Agree with that, I have been doing CBT for ten months now, it is really good, not a place to vent thats for sure, a place for reflecton perhaps.

[Juan Rom?n Riquelme]

Good to see so many people getting things off their chest in here.

 

I still fight the old black dog every day. For around 3 years now I'd say I've had about 20 days were I've felt properly happy. Its wierd because I can remember the events of the days vividly and get quite nostalgic about them, which is a bit weird considering they weren't exactly long ago.

 

Its really been a bad period for me and its taken its toll mentally and physically. I feel exhausted.

 

I think after reading some of these recent posts seeing a counselor might be a good road to take.

Edited November 19, 2012 by Captain Haddock

[gordiegords]

Good to see so many people getting things off their chest in here.

 

I still fight the old black dog every day. For around 3 years now I'd say I've had about 20 days were I've felt properly happy. Its wierd because I can remember the events of the days vividly and get quite nostalgic about them, which is a bit weird considering they weren't exactly long ago.

 

Its really been a bad period for me and its taken its toll mentally and physically. I feel exhausted.

 

I think after reading some of these recent posts seeing a counselor might be a good road to take.

 

A good place to start and which would give you an insight about cbt and if it could help you Is the book "brilliant cbt" it's erm brilliant.

[gordiegords]

Good to see so many people getting things off their chest in here.

 

I still fight the old black dog every day. For around 3 years now I'd say I've had about 20 days were I've felt properly happy. Its wierd because I can remember the events of the days vividly and get quite nostalgic about them, which is a bit weird considering they weren't exactly long ago.

 

Its really been a bad period for me and its taken its toll mentally and physically. I feel exhausted.

 

I think after reading some of these recent posts seeing a counselor might be a good road to take.

 

A good place to start and which would give you an insight about cbt and if it could help you Is the book "brilliant cbt" it's erm brilliant.

[Beverley]

so, i've been off work for 3 weeks and almost immediately after starting fluoxetine i've slept... slept like the dead!

 

i've also have a few little panic attacks which totally freak me out as that is not something normal to me at all. doc gave me on friday, a script for some diazepam to help with the anxiety which is currently the thing i'm hating and worried about the most.

 

other than sleeping almost constantly, i'm having headaches which isn't something i suffer from normally, and also the dry mouth thing.

 

i'm crying a lot and feeling more low than i ever have, but having done a little research, this all seems normal.

 

this thread however, and the people who have messaged me on the back of it, has been so reassuring. thank you to everyone who has sent me texts and pm's and i must admit its been a little overwhelming too.

 

i start counselling on wednesday so we'll see see how i get on with that. just hoping the meds side effects start settling down soon. i also kinda hope i'm not sent back to work a week on monday (unless my spirits change) as i still don't know if i can face that yet

 

things may feel different in a few days though, so who knows.

 

everyone worried about speaking to people on this thread though, as much as i feel shit about it right now, i know i've done the right thing, and also know things WILL get better in time, i just need to work it all out

 

 

good luck and best wishes to all seeking help x

[dobmisterdobster]

I was in Fluoxetine but I stopped taking it due to side effects.

I'm now on Citalopram. It's early days so it will take a while have an effect.

 

I have refused counselling. I don't like pouring my heart out to anybody.

And motivational speakers can GTF!

[Beverley]

how long were you taking the fluoxetine for before you switched meds? i've been almost 3 weeks now and not feeling much different.

i was prepared to feel worse before any changes, but doc reckoned about 3 weeks in i'd start feeling the effects

[J Cheever Loophole]

Good to see so many people getting things off their chest in here.

 

I still fight the old black dog every day. For around 3 years now I'd say I've had about 20 days were I've felt properly happy. Its wierd because I can remember the events of the days vividly and get quite nostalgic about them, which is a bit weird considering they weren't exactly long ago.

 

Its really been a bad period for me and its taken its toll mentally and physically. I feel exhausted.

 

I think after reading some of these recent posts seeing a counselor might be a good road to take.

Depends on what triggers the bad times Skipper.Any ***** that tries to give me advice about something they haven't went through themselves then hands me a leaflet on alcoholism can bite my badword shite.Better talking to real folk.

[Groot]

how long were you taking the fluoxetine for before you switched meds? i've been almost 3 weeks now and not feeling much different.

i was prepared to feel worse before any changes, but doc reckoned about 3 weeks in i'd start feeling the effects

 

Hi Bev, the mrs took fluoxetine for a while and she had quite regular headaches so that may be a side affect. She also said it is somewhere round about 3 or 4 weeks before they kicked in although the effects you will get would be more like levelling off rather than perking you up if that makes sense.

 

Hope the therapy works out

[Budgie.]

I was in Fluoxetine but I stopped taking it due to side effects.

I'm now on Citalopram. It's early days so it will take a while have an effect.

 

I have refused counselling. I don't like pouring my heart out to anybody.

And motivational speakers can GTF!

how long were you taking the fluoxetine for before you switched meds? i've been almost 3 weeks now and not feeling much different.

i was prepared to feel worse before any changes, but doc reckoned about 3 weeks in i'd start feeling the effects

 

I have been on Fluoxetine and only had a few minor side effects but after a bad spell of anxiety the doc recommended switching to Citalopram as it was more effective against anxiety.

 

I had to stop the F cold turkey and start the C and I have to say the following four weeks were some of the worst of my life. Not sure if it was the changeover method or just the C but something didn't agree with me. Ending up going back on to F.

 

To pullshapes- Knowing what you should do is the easy part. It's finding the courage to do it which is tough. However you know you have beaten it before and you will beat it again.

 

Don't be afraid of anti-depressants. In my experience they don't put you into any sort of goo-goo daze or moods, they just give your mind a lift to the point where your own cbt strategies can take effect.

 

To everybody-

 

These are some of the strategies I use. Hope at least one of them helps someone else...

 

- Keep fighting. We all have good spells and bad spells. I'm in a bad spell but know I just need to keep going and I'll be back in a better spell soon.

 

-It is your own mind putting the negative thoughts in your head and the only way out is to keep fighting.

 

-Try and do the things you would normally do, even if you don't feel like it.

 

-Accept that the part of you that evaluates things is wonky just now and that you can't trust it so don't think long term or make big decisions as you will be seeing everything through grey tinted specs.

 

-When things start to snowball inside your head and you feel worse and worse, try and distract yourself. Try and name the cup final squad of 98 or think of 10 current EPL players from a particular country. The break from worrying will give your mind a chance to slow down and heal and you can think a bit clearer.

 

-Try and avoid the trap of lying in bed thinking. If you can't sleep, get a book out, switch on the tv or start browsing jkb on your phone. Lying thinking just puts even more negative thoughts in your mind.

[Beverley]

Had my first counselling session yesterday and its left me feeling worse

 

Through my work I get 6 sessions but I wasn't aware I couldn't keep going to them, paid or otherwise, for longer.

 

Woman thinks its wrong for me to start sessions with her as I apparently need more than the 6 sessions so has given me a number to call.

 

Problem is I can't afford it and the waiting list is approx 6 months

All she wanted to discuss was my relationships with men which totally threw me as I was there for repressed grief which she acknowledged to be a major problem.

 

Took me almost a month to contact them for help and lord knows more than a decade to seek actual help from my doctor.

 

 

Lost isn't even the word and I feel like I've taken 5 steps backwards

[Chester™]

Had my first counselling session yesterday and its left me feeling worse

 

Through my work I get 6 sessions but I wasn't aware I couldn't keep going to them, paid or otherwise, for longer.

 

Woman thinks its wrong for me to start sessions with her as I apparently need more than the 6 sessions so has given me a number to call.

 

Problem is I can't afford it and the waiting list is approx 6 months

All she wanted to discuss was my relationships with men which totally threw me as I was there for repressed grief which she acknowledged to be a major problem.

 

Took me almost a month to contact them for help and lord knows more than a decade to seek actual help from my doctor.

 

 

Lost isn't even the word and I feel like I've taken 5 steps backwards

 

I've kinda purposely stayed out (at length) this thread for a few reasons though this has concerned me.

 

Both myself and Mrs Chester have experienced bouts of depression coupled with stress/anxiety etc. I've had my own MH difficulties on and off since around 18 (I'm now in my 30s) with varying degrees of support that worked and not. In a way, I found myself better once I moved career choice and started a placement in this area (though I can still be up and down and stupidly I keep it to myself) and fortunately its helped friends in similar positions. Now that wont work for everyone. But to cut a long story short, Mrs Chester tried the service that I think is based out of the Eric Liddell Centre near Morningside. It was completely free, staffed by volunteers, independent, and she found it to work very well.

 

I dont know if that would work for those on this thread. Hopefully.

[CavySlaveJambo]

Through my work I get 6 sessions but I wasn't aware I couldn't keep going to them, paid or otherwise, for longer.

 

 

I keep recommending Living Life to the Full to people. It's CBT based but in a self-help style. It's definately worth the time. As for the costs - unless you buy the book/DVD/CD - it's free.

 

In the meantime I am struggling with ASD-ness that is usually hidden underneath depression at this time of year, that means the ADD traits and excutive dysfunction are making it impossible to study/tidy/do real life tetris with objects and to be able to function enough to concentrate for a few hours without coffee being involved.

Edited November 30, 2012 by CavySlaveJambo

[Chester™]

I keep recommending Living Life to the Full to people. It's CBT based but in a self-help style. It's definately worth the time. As for the costs - unless you buy the book/DVD/CD - it's free.

 

On this, I forgot to say that I fully recommend CBT based work. I used this working with young people, though the principles remain the same for all ages. It really is excellent. I appreciate it wont be for everyone but if you havent done so already, please give it a go.

[Beverley]

thanks guys, i'll look into it. for the CBT stuff though, do you not need to be motivated to keep it up? i'm not really in that frame of mind yet as i am still at the wake up and cry myself back to sleep stage where i don't respond to text messages or emails for hours, sometimes days, and really can barely encourage myself out of bed.

i've found making arrangements to do stuff helpful, where i know i've said i'll go see a mate, or do something, i need to go as i have never been someone for letting folks down. other than that though, its hard enough to even get up to put the kettle on for a cuppa

[Chester™]

thanks guys, i'll look into it. for the CBT stuff though, do you not need to be motivated to keep it up? i'm not really in that frame of mind yet as i am still at the wake up and cry myself back to sleep stage where i don't respond to text messages or emails for hours, sometimes days, and really can barely encourage myself out of bed.

i've found making arrangements to do stuff helpful, where i know i've said i'll go see a mate, or do something, i need to go as i have never been someone for letting folks down. other than that though, its hard enough to even get up to put the kettle on for a cuppa

 

Not really. In my experience, you'd be surprised how much it would gee you up after not very long (though granted I'm really not an expert). The one technique I used, and still use with myself, friends and young people (who it was primarily focused for) that I work with in my current job, is core beliefs. It can be tough going but it can really get to the root of the issues and get people out the negative cycle they are in.

 

What you are doing so far Bev sounds a good start. Wee things make such a big difference.

[Beverley]

i'll ask the doc about it cos i genuinely feel i've got worse over the last few days

[Budgie.]

i'll ask the doc about it cos i genuinely feel i've got worse over the last few days

 

Keep going Bev.

 

Things might seem so bleak and dark just now but you WILL get through this.

 

Never forget that and when things seem too much, try and hold onto that feeling that you have felt good in the past and you WILL feel good again.

 

Take care.

[jack D and coke]

I'm happy to admit I was firmly in the "pull yourself together camp" as a teenager. I used to hear about depression suffered by people at school/family friends and wonder what the hell people where all about "cheer up" "get a grip" being the most common phrases that sprung to mind.

 

However that all changed when, aged about 19 and while at uni, began to suffer from crippling panic attacks. To me, someone like "me" couldn't suffer from mental illness - played football at a high level, studying a great degree, amazing family, friends and g/f around me - it just didn't seem possible. But it happened.

 

I was genuinely convinced that my heart was packing in, and symptoms were so so real - palpitations, pins and needles down my left arm, pain and a feeling of utter dread. These weren't imaginary symptoms, they were all really happening. The ONLY thing that made me feel better and got completely rid of the symptoms was alcohol - and as a student there was no shortage of it!The downside of this was that the symptoms were much worse with a hangover - a vicious cycle. I was trying to get on with life but ended up in A&E suffering heart attack like symptoms on numerous occassions (I even ended up in the first aid room at Tynie once on a heart monitor). Life was a nightmare, i missed university, i missed all sorts of family/friend things and it got me down. I ended up having to move home from living with mates as I couldn't handle it anymore. The problem with suffering from something like panic attacks is that the feelings can quickly spiral into depression as you struggle with the "what the hell is wrong with me" thoughts (I was pretty down at times but would never really have considered myself to be suffering from proper depression - i can very much see how it could happen though).

 

Countless doctors appointments ensued - my doctor, a really decent young lad who i got on well with, clearly knew from early on that these symptoms were in my head - however convincing me of this was not quite so easy.

 

To cut a long story short, after a year of utter hell, i started to get it sorted. I can't even really explain how, it just started happening. Slowly, i started to get it together. To me, the single most important thing was having an incredibly supportive family and g/f. They stuck by me throughout and NEVER treated me like i was being an idiot, not once telling me to "pull myself together". It was an incredibly, incredibly tough battle - far harder than i can really get over on here.

 

I can happily say that, 5 years on, I am as good as completely "cured" - i havent suffered a panic attack since. I have however been left with some lasting "symptoms" - i now find myself a bit of a hypochondriac, and with a bad hangover I still find myself "anxious" and need to calm myself down at times. I've learnt to control my breathing, which may sound minor but is incredibly helpful and important in combatting panic attacks.

 

I've done a lot of looking into panic attacks and mental illness since i suffered from it, and the one thing that sticks out more than anything is HOW MANY PEOPLE SUFFER - it's something i was completely oblivious too until then. However, the more I spoke about it to friends/looked into it, the more people said "I actually get something similar"/"my girlfriend suffers the same" etc - the most important thing to realise is you are far far from being alone. There are people out there everywhere suffering from similar. Mental illness is not the taboo it once was, and the only way to deal with it is to seek help. It is far far less likely to go away on its own. I would add that alcohol and drugs only make things worse and are certainly not a cure!!

 

The reason i posted this is to try and highlight that really anyone can suffer, and that while there is no miracle cure, it can get better and be controlled. It is also to try to state to anyone who finds it funny to slag mental illness (i was one of these people) that it is incredibly real, and something i wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.

 

Anyway, there's my story...

Sounds almost exactly like what happened to me. Not a nice time. Took me almost a couple of years to start to properly move on. It's like your life stops, I can't even talk about it properly now and it was about 15 years ago. Such a bad time in my life but you've put how I felt into a few hundred words.

[jmcdowell1980]

Excellent program that has highlighted the problem especially among men. Bringing awareness, good man.

[gordiegords]

Cbt, Cbt, Cbt and more Cbt, ok ok it wont work for everyone but its worth a pop, retrain the mind from negative core beliefs. small steps, enough of them make a big difference,

[Hansel]

Aye CBT worked well for me. Downloaded CBT for dummies audiobook from iTunes as I prefer to do things in my own time.

 

It was'nt until late adulthood that I realised that I suffer from Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) which is linked to (ADHD) but without the hyperactivity.

 

Years and years of being told I'm a day dreamer, lazy, careless and a poor listener had a big impact on my self esteem, leaving me with social anxiety so CBT helped me with some of my negative unhelpful thinking which creeps into my mind every so often.

[CavySlaveJambo]

until late adulthood that I realised that I suffer from Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) which is linked to (ADHD) but without the hyperactivity.

 

It's trait's of this (self medicated by caffeine) that is causing me no end of problems at the moment. That and the ASD by itself. It's almost as though the depression and hypomania cover them up and then when I get rid of those two things the ASD and friends come out to play. The dyspraxic traits/motor coordination and balance difficulties are easier to deal with until I almost fall/there is a lot of snow around.

Edited November 30, 2012 by CavySlaveJambo

[gordiegords]

How is everyone doing these days?

[Beverley]

Back at the doc in the morning and dreading she might send me back to work as I genuinely don't feel ready yet. Took my sick line in last week and nearly shook out my skin and had terrible anxiety about it. Sleeping pills aren't working either so will have a chat with her and update after that

[Shapes]

Very up and down. One day I can be really happy and smiley, the next really low. Been getting really panicky again recently too and really stressed out about uni and work. I just feel like everything bad happens at the one time and when I'm already feeling low I find it difficult to cope with everything that's being thrown at me. Definitely feeling better than I did about a month ago though thanks to support from family, a couple of really close friends and of course the boyfriend whose daftness keeps me smiling through the bad times.

[The Real Maroonblood]

Very up and down. One day I can be really happy and smiley, the next really low. Been getting really panicky again recently too and really stressed out about uni and work. I just feel like everything bad happens at the one time and when I'm already feeling low I find it difficult to cope with everything that's being thrown at me. Definitely feeling better than I did about a month ago though thanks to support from family, a couple of really close friends and of course the boyfriend whose daftness keeps me smiling through the bad times.

Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better.

[Craigieboy]

Back at the doc in the morning and dreading she might send me back to work as I genuinely don't feel ready yet. Took my sick line in last week and nearly shook out my skin and had terrible anxiety about it. Sleeping pills aren't working either so will have a chat with her and update after that

 

Good luck Bev.

[Robbo-Jambo]

Back at the doc in the morning and dreading she might send me back to work as I genuinely don't feel ready yet. Took my sick line in last week and nearly shook out my skin and had terrible anxiety about it. Sleeping pills aren't working either so will have a chat with her and update after that

Dont think your doc. will send you back to work yet when you explain you still feel like that.

 

When i had spell like that the doctor said there is no point going back to work until YOU yourself feel ready and HE/SHE is satisfied that you are fit to go back.

 

Go back to soon leads to the enevitable conclusion that you will be off sick again quickly and back at the doc.

 

Sure she will give you more time and wouldnt get too stressed about the time aspect. It will take as long as you need.

 

Hope all goes well.

[Robbo-Jambo]

Very up and down. One day I can be really happy and smiley, the next really low. Been getting really panicky again recently too and really stressed out about uni and work. I just feel like everything bad happens at the one time and when I'm already feeling low I find it difficult to cope with everything that's being thrown at me. Definitely feeling better than I did about a month ago though thanks to support from family, a couple of really close friends and of course the boyfriend whose daftness keeps me smiling through the bad times.

Glad to hear the last month you have been feeling better. Keep your chin up.

Edited December 13, 2012 by Robbo-Jambo

[Sergio Garcia]

How is everyone doing these days?

 

Can go weeks and months perfectly fine and then boom one night just hits me like a brick wall. Managed to talk it over with others and can come out of the depressive states a lot quicker than before, I am lucky at the moment as its only really 24/48 bouts that are affecting me at the minute not like it was when it was at its worst.

 

Overwhelmed in a good way at times with friends and family who offer to chat any time, as well as people who I have met from here in real life that have messaged me to say if I need to chat then they are available. Some right good eggs on here.

[Beverley]

Couldn't agree more Sergio. I'm actually really taken aback by the amount of support offered from so many here and those who are also going through this but don't want to talk here.

I'm so pleased I actually had the balls to post in this thread as its helped me a lot. I just hope others are feeling the love here too as great as that sounds

[Gizmo]

Back at the doc in the morning and dreading she might send me back to work as I genuinely don't feel ready yet. Took my sick line in last week and nearly shook out my skin and had terrible anxiety about it. Sleeping pills aren't working either so will have a chat with her and update after that

 

Without proper sleep alone you'll not be fit to work, never mind your other issues.

 

Do you feel the meds have had any affect on mood - perhaps you've noticed the odd longer periods of stable mood?

[Beverley]

Ha the meds doubled almost a fortnight ago so all the initial side effects kicked in again but seem to be settling a bit now. This last week has been hellish with crying though which may or may not be good. I'm crying all the time without even realising it and everything is setting me off now. Cos that's freaked me out a wee bit cos it was unexpected the anxiety has heightened. It's kinda hard to tell right now

Brain is still pretty foggy but with more periods of lucidity than before so I guess things are happening now

[The Wrinkly Ninja]

Just thought I'd post something for all the folk out there who are reading this thread but haven't posted.

 

A lot of the things that you are feeling, are completely normal things to be feeling.

 

You might find it difficult to to talk about the way you are feeling right now because you aren't ready, but, there are people out there who can help you when you are.

 

 

 

 

 

Breathing Space - free and confidential advice & support - advice on services in your area - open up - Mon-Thurs 6pm-2am, Fri 6pm-Mon 6am 0800 83 85 87

NHS living life - free and confidential Cognitive Behavioural Therapy service 0800 328 9655 Mon-Fri 1pm to 9pm

[Guest Bilel Mohsni]

 

 

Good on you mate, theres not many 21 year olds would do that kind of thing. Like i said, i used to do Hospital Radio when i was younger. Used to do a Sunday night with a guy called Tommy who was a massive Jambo, coincidently

 

It was good fun and gave me barrels of confidence, we used to have to produce and present a two hour show, as well as visit wards in the hospital gathering requests from patients, something i would never in a million years have thought as rewarding and entertaining as it actually was. Doing the radio bit was fun, talking bollocks, making up competitions, playing tunes, learned alot about music, but meeting patients was the best bit. As i say, gave me loads of confidence and brought me on

 

I think I know this Tommy, you speak of, he's a mate. Big Rush fan?

[Boof]

If it's the same fellow - he's on here. Top lad

 

JKB name is same as 1st name of Mr Lee of Rush.

[Guest Bilel Mohsni]

If it's the same fellow - he's on here. Top lad

 

JKB name is same as 1st name of Mr Lee of Rush.

 

That's the chap. Good guy.