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Finally got a place on the mental health first aid course. Looking forward to it. I’ll let folk know how it goes. 
 

A couple of years ago I started a Wellbeing committee on campus, and last month I agreed to merge it with the mental health committee. With more people working together we should be able to achieve much more.


I think some of the people on this thread might benefit from starting/joining similar initiatives either at their own work or with the local authorities. I find it helps me if I focus on the issues other people experience, and then I can apply it to my own issues/situation afterwards. 

 

Also joined the Our Health scheme with UoE and SNHS. I’m going to help with the Cyrenians - looking to help homeless people who are being let down by the justice system.

 

Again I’ll let people know what my experiences are, in case it’s of any use/help. 👍

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gashauskis9
7 hours ago, AlphonseCapone said:

 

Thanks. I am going to try and commit to it more because so many people are positive about it. 

 

On walking, that's one activity that really does help me relax, but only if it's out in open, countryside. Walking home in Edinburgh City centre tends to send me the opposite way! 

I can’t vouch high enough for walking.  I was at a place in my life around New Year last year where I’d hit the wall.  Had moved back to my Mum’s aged 40 feeling like a total failure in life following yet another relationship breakdown, but this time with kids involved. I was all over the shop.

 

One day I left work to head home and decided to walk part of the journey (wasn’t in a rush to get home as I didn’t really have anything to rush home for).  I set off from Dundas St with an audiobook in my lugs and walked along Inverleith Park.  Then I kept going along Ferry Road and before I knew it I was at the shore.  I kept going along Seafield then through Porty to my Mum’s in Musselburgh. The way I was feeling at the time, I would have just kept walking and walking.  I couldn’t feel anything, no tiredness or breathlessness, it was like I was just floating along.  9.5 miles in total and I felt brilliant for the first time in months.  My head was starting to clear.  I committed at that point to walking home from work at least twice a week and stuck to it (weather permitting).  In May last year this culminated in me doing a 30 mile charity walk at work from Balloch to the centre of Glasgow.  Big deal for me as I’m a fat ******* and can’t run to save myself.  Managed to get out of my Mum’s around that time as well and am now renting my own wee gaff on my tod.

 

I still battle with depression and anxiety on a daily basis ranging from mild frustration to all out isolation and tears.  What I will say is that the walking has probably saved my life.  It kept me distracted at a point in my life where I had no distractions or things to look forward to (coupled with Hearts being persistently shite during a period when I need most cheering up).    The weather plays its part of course, and with the recent storms I’ve hardly done any walking and it effects my mindset in a big way.  If I don’t do at least 10000 steps a day I feel like I’ve let myself and my body down.

 

Very proud of this thread though (and KB in general which acts as a daily distraction) and everyone on it who has been brave to speak up.  I think the anonymity of it definitely helps as well.

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3 hours ago, Gashauskis9 said:

I can’t vouch high enough for walking.  I was at a place in my life around New Year last year where I’d hit the wall.  Had moved back to my Mum’s aged 40 feeling like a total failure in life following yet another relationship breakdown, but this time with kids involved. I was all over the shop.

 

One day I left work to head home and decided to walk part of the journey (wasn’t in a rush to get home as I didn’t really have anything to rush home for).  I set off from Dundas St with an audiobook in my lugs and walked along Inverleith Park.  Then I kept going along Ferry Road and before I knew it I was at the shore.  I kept going along Seafield then through Porty to my Mum’s in Musselburgh. The way I was feeling at the time, I would have just kept walking and walking.  I couldn’t feel anything, no tiredness or breathlessness, it was like I was just floating along.  9.5 miles in total and I felt brilliant for the first time in months.  My head was starting to clear.  I committed at that point to walking home from work at least twice a week and stuck to it (weather permitting).  In May last year this culminated in me doing a 30 mile charity walk at work from Balloch to the centre of Glasgow.  Big deal for me as I’m a fat ******* and can’t run to save myself.  Managed to get out of my Mum’s around that time as well and am now renting my own wee gaff on my tod.

 

I still battle with depression and anxiety on a daily basis ranging from mild frustration to all out isolation and tears.  What I will say is that the walking has probably saved my life.  It kept me distracted at a point in my life where I had no distractions or things to look forward to (coupled with Hearts being persistently shite during a period when I need most cheering up).    The weather plays its part of course, and with the recent storms I’ve hardly done any walking and it effects my mindset in a big way.  If I don’t do at least 10000 steps a day I feel like I’ve let myself and my body down.

 

Very proud of this thread though (and KB in general which acts as a daily distraction) and everyone on it who has been brave to speak up.  I think the anonymity of it definitely helps as well.

Totally agree re walking. Love putting headphones on and can easily let an hour go past. Its not the same without a dog though. Wish i could get one but i know the responsibility and it wouldn't be fair. Would be fantastic! 

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On 15/02/2020 at 20:39, Harry Potter said:

Are you on medication, maybe need it put up a wee bit, i had a wobble in to the new year

but ok now, get back to docs and talk to them, take care bud.

Double the dose of sereatine but not taken yet. Worried about the side effects 

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Zlatanable
6 hours ago, Special Officer Doofy said:

Finally got a place on the mental health first aid course. Looking forward to it. I’ll let folk know how it goes. 
 

A couple of years ago I started a Wellbeing committee on campus, and last month I agreed to merge it with the mental health committee. With more people working together we should be able to achieve much more.


I think some of the people on this thread might benefit from starting/joining similar initiatives either at their own work or with the local authorities. I find it helps me if I focus on the issues other people experience, and then I can apply it to my own issues/situation afterwards. 

 

Also joined the Our Health scheme with UoE and SNHS. I’m going to help with the Cyrenians - looking to help homeless people who are being let down by the justice system.

 

Again I’ll let people know what my experiences are, in case it’s of any use/help. 👍

Thank you. 

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PTBCAL

I’ve stayed away from this thread for various reasons but I can relate to so much tbh. Some terrific posters on here who have reached out to me over the last 2 years or so. 

 

Didnt know it at the time but being married to my ex left with on medication and suffering crippling anxiety. Four years of slowly losing my self worth and essentially my well being. Deep down I knew her controlling nature and the fact that she was so unsupportive towards me was the reason I was in the place I was. I had given up and existed merely for my kids. Nothing else. 
 

Fast forward 6 months - I took the steps of walking away from her and divorcing her immediately. No discussion at all. Through the support of a good friend (she was amazing) and my doctor I came off the medication and slowly started to be ME again - the ME that had disappeared years ago. Wasn’t all down to my ex wife at all.,.. think I suffered for years prior to meeting her but being married and feeling alone made me become the person I was. 

 

Now, I’ve booked my first holiday since 2008, countless weekends away with either kids or friends. Actually socialise now. I befriend kids with HIV issues through a charity called Stay Positive here in Edinburgh. Started running again. Met lots of tremendous people especially the ladies 👍. Having a laugh again after so long. 
 

Why am I typing this....well I think the first step is recognising that there is a problem mentally and reaching out is so it’s important to talk. 
 

Secondly accept rest some decisions you make may seem unpalatable but you have to be selfish to a point.

 

Thirdly accept that it’s not a quick fix and whilst everyone is different you will need some kind of support for the long term so get in place.

 

Lastly for me being on medication for so long made me flatline so if you feel strong enough in time consider reducing your medication and ultimately stop it. This might not be for everyone but for me it’s given he the energy to get my life back to something like I was 10 years ago. 
 

Set yourself goals big and small. Be prepared for difficult times but having a support network and focussing on things that ultimately matter you can achieve so much more. 
 

Good luck everyone 

 

 

Paul 
 

  

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Harry Potter
7 hours ago, LeftBack said:

Double the dose of sereatine but not taken yet. Worried about the side effects 

Obviously keep in touch with your doctor if side effects are bad, hope you get better

bud, try and stay positive, i know its not easy.

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For those looking for an alternative to anti depressant medication, look into the supplement DLPA.

 

 

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14 hours ago, PTBCAL said:

I’ve stayed away from this thread for various reasons but I can relate to so much tbh. Some terrific posters on here who have reached out to me over the last 2 years or so. 

 

Didnt know it at the time but being married to my ex left with on medication and suffering crippling anxiety. Four years of slowly losing my self worth and essentially my well being. Deep down I knew her controlling nature and the fact that she was so unsupportive towards me was the reason I was in the place I was. I had given up and existed merely for my kids. Nothing else. 
 

Fast forward 6 months - I took the steps of walking away from her and divorcing her immediately. No discussion at all. Through the support of a good friend (she was amazing) and my doctor I came off the medication and slowly started to be ME again - the ME that had disappeared years ago. Wasn’t all down to my ex wife at all.,.. think I suffered for years prior to meeting her but being married and feeling alone made me become the person I was. 

 

Now, I’ve booked my first holiday since 2008, countless weekends away with either kids or friends. Actually socialise now. I befriend kids with HIV issues through a charity called Stay Positive here in Edinburgh. Started running again. Met lots of tremendous people especially the ladies 👍. Having a laugh again after so long. 
 

Why am I typing this....well I think the first step is recognising that there is a problem mentally and reaching out is so it’s important to talk. 
 

Secondly accept rest some decisions you make may seem unpalatable but you have to be selfish to a point.

 

Thirdly accept that it’s not a quick fix and whilst everyone is different you will need some kind of support for the long term so get in place.

 

Lastly for me being on medication for so long made me flatline so if you feel strong enough in time consider reducing your medication and ultimately stop it. This might not be for everyone but for me it’s given he the energy to get my life back to something like I was 10 years ago. 
 

Set yourself goals big and small. Be prepared for difficult times but having a support network and focussing on things that ultimately matter you can achieve so much more. 
 

Good luck everyone 

 

 

Paul 
 

  

 

A lot in this that I recognised. Good post and advice 👍

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Dagger Is Back

For those of us who suffer SAD, hang in there folks. Sunrise at 642am on 9 March and sunset at 1805. Clocks going forward on 29 March, we're getting there, slowly but surely 

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Beast Boy
43 minutes ago, Dagger Is Back said:

For those of us who suffer SAD, hang in there folks. Sunrise at 642am on 9 March and sunset at 1805. Clocks going forward on 29 March, we're getting there, slowly but surely 

 

Best time of year, the night the clocks go forward.

 

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2 hours ago, Dagger Is Back said:

For those of us who suffer SAD, hang in there folks. Sunrise at 642am on 9 March and sunset at 1805. Clocks going forward on 29 March, we're getting there, slowly but surely 

My mate suffers from that. can hardly get him out the house to the pub after the clocks change in October. Usual a bit better by early December. 

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8 hours ago, Dagger Is Back said:

For those of us who suffer SAD, hang in there folks. Sunrise at 642am on 9 March and sunset at 1805. Clocks going forward on 29 March, we're getting there, slowly but surely 

 

I've found it hard going this winter but I can drive home from work in daylight now and can't wait for the clocks to change. 

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On 23/02/2020 at 06:45, PTBCAL said:

I’ve stayed away from this thread for various reasons but I can relate to so much tbh. Some terrific posters on here who have reached out to me over the last 2 years or so. 

 

Didnt know it at the time but being married to my ex left with on medication and suffering crippling anxiety. Four years of slowly losing my self worth and essentially my well being. Deep down I knew her controlling nature and the fact that she was so unsupportive towards me was the reason I was in the place I was. I had given up and existed merely for my kids. Nothing else. 
 

Fast forward 6 months - I took the steps of walking away from her and divorcing her immediately. No discussion at all. Through the support of a good friend (she was amazing) and my doctor I came off the medication and slowly started to be ME again - the ME that had disappeared years ago. Wasn’t all down to my ex wife at all.,.. think I suffered for years prior to meeting her but being married and feeling alone made me become the person I was. 

 

Now, I’ve booked my first holiday since 2008, countless weekends away with either kids or friends. Actually socialise now. I befriend kids with HIV issues through a charity called Stay Positive here in Edinburgh. Started running again. Met lots of tremendous people especially the ladies 👍. Having a laugh again after so long. 
 

Why am I typing this....well I think the first step is recognising that there is a problem mentally and reaching out is so it’s important to talk. 
 

Secondly accept rest some decisions you make may seem unpalatable but you have to be selfish to a point.

 

Thirdly accept that it’s not a quick fix and whilst everyone is different you will need some kind of support for the long term so get in place.

 

Lastly for me being on medication for so long made me flatline so if you feel strong enough in time consider reducing your medication and ultimately stop it. This might not be for everyone but for me it’s given he the energy to get my life back to something like I was 10 years ago. 
 

Set yourself goals big and small. Be prepared for difficult times but having a support network and focussing on things that ultimately matter you can achieve so much more. 
 

Good luck everyone 

 

 

Paul 
 

  

Thank you for sharing your story,

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Zlatanable

I felt it today. 

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LeftBack
1 hour ago, Zlatanable said:

I felt it today. 

You ok? 

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Zlatanable
2 minutes ago, LeftBack said:

You ok? 

Yeah, I am ok now. 

Thanks for asking @LeftBack

 

I just felt like things were changing, and life had changed. 

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3 hours ago, Zlatanable said:

Yeah, I am ok now. 

Thanks for asking @LeftBack

 

I just felt like things were changing, and life had changed. 

Stick in there mate. 

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On 23/02/2020 at 01:38, LeftBack said:

Totally agree re walking. Love putting headphones on and can easily let an hour go past. Its not the same without a dog though. Wish i could get one but i know the responsibility and it wouldn't be fair. Would be fantastic! 


I’m very lucky where I live , I have several long walks for the divadog right on my doorstep. Im a 100 yards from a huge park with woods a river etc. I just put on a comedy podcast for the most part and walk away listening to that and it definately helps. Also gives me an excuse (in my head) to forget what a treadmill is. Richard Herrings RHLSTP is prob my favourite for this. 
 

Other things people can read up on that I have prob mentioned on here before are supplements such as L-Glutamine , 5-HTP and Maca Root Powder. These won’t help for everyone but it takes 5minutes to read up on and may help.

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Just now, sadj said:


I’m very lucky where I live , I have several long walks for the divadog right on my doorstep. Im a 100 yards from a huge park with woods a river etc. I just put on a comedy podcast for the most part and walk away listening to that and it definately helps. Also gives me an excuse (in my head) to forget what a treadmill is. Richard Herrings RHLSTP is prob my favourite for this. 
 

Other things people can read up on that I have prob mentioned on here before are supplements such as L-Glutamine , 5-HTP and Maca Root Powder. These won’t help for everyone but it takes 5minutes to read up on and may help.

Have you listened to the Ricky Gervais podcast? Used to walk for miles listening to that 

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23 minutes ago, LeftBack said:

Have you listened to the Ricky Gervais podcast? Used to walk for miles listening to that 

No , will give it a try though , i like his early stuff

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Suso Santana

I've been on the Fluoxetine capsules for a month, 

Didn't notice much of a change other than severe diarrhea in the last few days.

Doctor wanted to double the dose..

**** that. 

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Been in a bit of depression for probably as long as I can remember, going as far back as about 12 years old, I had adhd which I used as an excuse for all of the problems I had. Seemed to lose that when I turned about 16 or 17 and then decided that getting drunk nearly every day was a great way to be. Borrowing money off people just to have another pint because i didn't want to go home n sit bored in my room. Then I started to get myself loans and credit cards I realistically couldn't afford, got into a wee mess with drugs, blamed my low mood and depression on my money problems, or splitting up with my partner, work, everything in my life was not a good thing for me. And despite several suicide attempts and giving up, I sorted my debt, got back with my ex, got myself into a steady and secure work environment and then finally accepted the word DENIAL. All of my life I have pretty much had an excuse to be so down, secluded and anti social, I have taken about 15 years to get to the stage where I can finally accept who I am and how I have always got to ruin things in my life, I get to a stage where I'm almost there and can see the real future and the happy ending. Then something in my head seems to press a switch and say nah, almost, but you can't be happy and I will always take a risk or make a daft decision I know will ruin the whole lot.  I have finally asked for a diagnosis and a way out of the problem I have.  Bipolar symptoms,  borderline personality disorder,  as well as mania, depression and a fear of abandonment are some of the things flagged up in my first appointment, and I feel so much better accepting that word denial and I feel like the weight and expectation I have has been lifted from me, I dont feel like I need to pretend i am someone I'm not just to make someone happy, i don't want that to get me back to feeling like i know i will always do something bad just to help me or my mindset. Sorry for the rant, but if it helps one person on here then I'll be happy with that, the word denial is the most powerful thing that has had such a positive impact on my mindset. Still ongoing with doctors and mental health experts but it finally for the first time in my life feels like there is an alternative way out. 

 

Anyone struggling feel free to pm and can chat about their feelings.  I've been through so many things in my life I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy so I do understand and I can guarantee I have done worse, felt worse and I thought that meant I had to go. 

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2 hours ago, dazajmbo said:

Been in a bit of depression for probably as long as I can remember, going as far back as about 12 years old, I had adhd which I used as an excuse for all of the problems I had. Seemed to lose that when I turned about 16 or 17 and then decided that getting drunk nearly every day was a great way to be. Borrowing money off people just to have another pint because i didn't want to go home n sit bored in my room. Then I started to get myself loans and credit cards I realistically couldn't afford, got into a wee mess with drugs, blamed my low mood and depression on my money problems, or splitting up with my partner, work, everything in my life was not a good thing for me. And despite several suicide attempts and giving up, I sorted my debt, got back with my ex, got myself into a steady and secure work environment and then finally accepted the word DENIAL. All of my life I have pretty much had an excuse to be so down, secluded and anti social, I have taken about 15 years to get to the stage where I can finally accept who I am and how I have always got to ruin things in my life, I get to a stage where I'm almost there and can see the real future and the happy ending. Then something in my head seems to press a switch and say nah, almost, but you can't be happy and I will always take a risk or make a daft decision I know will ruin the whole lot.  I have finally asked for a diagnosis and a way out of the problem I have.  Bipolar symptoms,  borderline personality disorder,  as well as mania, depression and a fear of abandonment are some of the things flagged up in my first appointment, and I feel so much better accepting that word denial and I feel like the weight and expectation I have has been lifted from me, I dont feel like I need to pretend i am someone I'm not just to make someone happy, i don't want that to get me back to feeling like i know i will always do something bad just to help me or my mindset. Sorry for the rant, but if it helps one person on here then I'll be happy with that, the word denial is the most powerful thing that has had such a positive impact on my mindset. Still ongoing with doctors and mental health experts but it finally for the first time in my life feels like there is an alternative way out. 

 

Anyone struggling feel free to pm and can chat about their feelings.  I've been through so many things in my life I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy so I do understand and I can guarantee I have done worse, felt worse and I thought that meant I had to go. 

Thank you for this. 

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4 hours ago, dazajmbo said:

Been in a bit of depression for probably as long as I can remember, going as far back as about 12 years old, I had adhd which I used as an excuse for all of the problems I had. Seemed to lose that when I turned about 16 or 17 and then decided that getting drunk nearly every day was a great way to be. Borrowing money off people just to have another pint because i didn't want to go home n sit bored in my room. Then I started to get myself loans and credit cards I realistically couldn't afford, got into a wee mess with drugs, blamed my low mood and depression on my money problems, or splitting up with my partner, work, everything in my life was not a good thing for me. And despite several suicide attempts and giving up, I sorted my debt, got back with my ex, got myself into a steady and secure work environment and then finally accepted the word DENIAL. All of my life I have pretty much had an excuse to be so down, secluded and anti social, I have taken about 15 years to get to the stage where I can finally accept who I am and how I have always got to ruin things in my life, I get to a stage where I'm almost there and can see the real future and the happy ending. Then something in my head seems to press a switch and say nah, almost, but you can't be happy and I will always take a risk or make a daft decision I know will ruin the whole lot.  I have finally asked for a diagnosis and a way out of the problem I have.  Bipolar symptoms,  borderline personality disorder,  as well as mania, depression and a fear of abandonment are some of the things flagged up in my first appointment, and I feel so much better accepting that word denial and I feel like the weight and expectation I have has been lifted from me, I dont feel like I need to pretend i am someone I'm not just to make someone happy, i don't want that to get me back to feeling like i know i will always do something bad just to help me or my mindset. Sorry for the rant, but if it helps one person on here then I'll be happy with that, the word denial is the most powerful thing that has had such a positive impact on my mindset. Still ongoing with doctors and mental health experts but it finally for the first time in my life feels like there is an alternative way out. 

 

Anyone struggling feel free to pm and can chat about their feelings.  I've been through so many things in my life I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy so I do understand and I can guarantee I have done worse, felt worse and I thought that meant I had to go. 


great post Daz , knowing where you were back then , but not the more recent stuff I know how tough you had it. To have gone through the recent stuff and downwards but  get back up shows a proper strength of character , good to know you are getting there ❤️
 

PS: You weren’t a bad kid 😉

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On 07/03/2020 at 22:26, Zlatanable said:

Thank you for this. 

 

Anytime, happy to give the honest open feelings and troubles I had to anyone looking for a new direction or way of thinking. Feel free to PM me if you need to 👍

 

On 07/03/2020 at 23:54, sadj said:


great post Daz , knowing where you were back then , but not the more recent stuff I know how tough you had it. To have gone through the recent stuff and downwards but  get back up shows a proper strength of character , good to know you are getting there ❤️
 

PS: You weren’t a bad kid 😉

 

Cheers pal. X

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Important to keep this thread near the top.  Over the coming months, with self isolation very much being the order of the day, I’d expect to see a high spike in mental health related illness as a result.

 

Important to keep talking and keep occupied in spite of this, no matter how difficult it may be with the barriers we’re facing.  

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2 hours ago, Gashauskis9 said:

Important to keep this thread near the top.  Over the coming months, with self isolation very much being the order of the day, I’d expect to see a high spike in mental health related illness as a result.

 

Important to keep talking and keep occupied in spite of this, no matter how difficult it may be with the barriers we’re facing.  

 

Great post. Like lots of others I've suffered with health anxieties over the years, so I'm trying to just focus on what I can do to help other people and not watch the news. 

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On 07/03/2020 at 10:29, sadj said:

No , will give it a try though , i like his early stuff

 

Find the xfm shows if you can, on Spotify. Hilarious and can keep me going when I'm feeling it. 

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On 07/03/2020 at 19:28, dazajmbo said:

Been in a bit of depression for probably as long as I can remember, going as far back as about 12 years old, I had adhd which I used as an excuse for all of the problems I had. Seemed to lose that when I turned about 16 or 17 and then decided that getting drunk nearly every day was a great way to be. Borrowing money off people just to have another pint because i didn't want to go home n sit bored in my room. Then I started to get myself loans and credit cards I realistically couldn't afford, got into a wee mess with drugs, blamed my low mood and depression on my money problems, or splitting up with my partner, work, everything in my life was not a good thing for me. And despite several suicide attempts and giving up, I sorted my debt, got back with my ex, got myself into a steady and secure work environment and then finally accepted the word DENIAL. All of my life I have pretty much had an excuse to be so down, secluded and anti social, I have taken about 15 years to get to the stage where I can finally accept who I am and how I have always got to ruin things in my life, I get to a stage where I'm almost there and can see the real future and the happy ending. Then something in my head seems to press a switch and say nah, almost, but you can't be happy and I will always take a risk or make a daft decision I know will ruin the whole lot.  I have finally asked for a diagnosis and a way out of the problem I have.  Bipolar symptoms,  borderline personality disorder,  as well as mania, depression and a fear of abandonment are some of the things flagged up in my first appointment, and I feel so much better accepting that word denial and I feel like the weight and expectation I have has been lifted from me, I dont feel like I need to pretend i am someone I'm not just to make someone happy, i don't want that to get me back to feeling like i know i will always do something bad just to help me or my mindset. Sorry for the rant, but if it helps one person on here then I'll be happy with that, the word denial is the most powerful thing that has had such a positive impact on my mindset. Still ongoing with doctors and mental health experts but it finally for the first time in my life feels like there is an alternative way out. 

 

Anyone struggling feel free to pm and can chat about their feelings.  I've been through so many things in my life I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy so I do understand and I can guarantee I have done worse, felt worse and I thought that meant I had to go. 

I've just read my life reading that. Word for word we have had the exact same life. 

 

I probably still owe a few quid here and there though 

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2 hours ago, AW1 said:

I've just read my life reading that. Word for word we have had the exact same life. 

 

I probably still owe a few quid here and there though 

 

 

As do I, just not as severe as I previously did.

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4 hours ago, AndyNic said:

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Ah ****. I’m on 150mg of the stuff a day. 100s are running low but freshly stocked on 50s with still some to spare. Better hope they’ll stretch, and I may have to lower to 100 or something daily

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On 25/02/2020 at 12:26, Dagger Is Back said:

For those of us who suffer SAD, hang in there folks. Sunrise at 642am on 9 March and sunset at 1805. Clocks going forward on 29 March, we're getting there, slowly but surely 

 

Not so good if you have Season Pattern Bipolar.  Manic season and going on to lockdown will be fun. 

 

 

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On 14/03/2020 at 16:23, Captain Canada said:

 

Great post. Like lots of others I've suffered with health anxieties over the years, so I'm trying to just focus on what I can do to help other people and not watch the news. 

Good post captain, helping others certainly puts a positive in your life and obviously overcomes the negatives.

Im avoiding the news as well, it certainly does not help my anxiety, i worry about everything, just the way i am.

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3 hours ago, Harry Potter said:

Good post captain, helping others certainly puts a positive in your life and obviously overcomes the negatives.

Im avoiding the news as well, it certainly does not help my anxiety, i worry about everything, just the way i am.

Not a good place to be at the moment. I’m not suffering from depression but the news is getting me down as well. Who thought 24 hour news channels would be a great idea?

 

Hang in there!!

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Like others on this thread, I'd lived with undiagnosed depression for almost 25 years when I first sought help in my late thirties. Now in my early fifties and I still have periods of anxiety rather than depression which I can manage better through medication. Life will always throw the sticky stuff at you, and having a good support network round you and using it when you need it is so so important. I spent a long time receiving Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, and while it's not for everyone, I had bottled so much up in 25 years that until I got that out and cried myself dry, medication had no effect whatsoever. I consider myself fortunate to have accessed the help I needed before it was too late, because time was running out. I have fallen back in love with football after I was treated very badly by football back in the late '70's (Not this club or Celtic). It took me a long, long time to come to terms with this, walk back through a turnstile and feel comfortable in my own skin. Hearts have always been my Club, and always will be, but I haven't always been there for them. Ive made a promise to myself to change that, and boy, am I regretting that decision at the moment (gallows humour , I promise 😁). I have perspective now that I'd missed for so much of my 20's, 30's and some of my 40's, and I really hope that anyone who has, is, or potentially may suffer from this terrible silent torment finds and holds onto their own perspective.

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2 hours ago, davemclaren said:

Not a good place to be at the moment. I’m not suffering from depression but the news is getting me down as well. Who thought 24 hour news channels would be a great idea?

 

Hang in there!!

Thankyou Dave, longer days due soon so thats a start , a lot of uncertainty for the future, take care 

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Whilst not officially isolated (and not the type to head out much regardless) I’m in day 1 of 5 days off work. Last night and today I’ve just been completely deflated, no doubt the amount of news on the house tv has contributed to that. These times, they’re a *******

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On 18/03/2020 at 16:36, davemclaren said:

Not a good place to be at the moment. I’m not suffering from depression but the news is getting me down as well. Who thought 24 hour news channels would be a great idea?

 

Hang in there!!

Absolutely spot on Dave. I like you, am lucky enough not (or to have) suffered from depression. Sadly I believe more people will likely die from things like depression, off the back of losing jobs etc as a result of the current situation we find ourselves in. The news is a no go for me just now. I've been fortunate to spend this midweek in center parcs with my wife and 2 young kids. Closes tomorrow for 4 weeks (at least)but it's been a relief being in a forest almost cut off from the outside world this week and I consider myself lucky. My 5 year old has had a ball and its put everything in to perspective for my wife and I. Our youngest is only 10months and oblivious to what's going on but our 5year old is asking questions about coronavirus on a regular basis and has done for the past 3 weeks. Lots of guests left tues/wed on the back of Boris and his news conferences but those of us that have stayed, aswell as the staff have been pragmatic about it all in the sense that  theres nothing really to be gained by leaving couple of days early especially when we have no idea of how many months of crap we are about to endure. Fair play to center parcs, from talking to the staff here they have said they are going to be paid full wages over the period of closure. They will be expected to come in and help deep clean every aspect of the site but at least they are being paid in full. Unlike the poor 8500 souls who work for the tax Dodger that is is Richard Branson! What a fickle world we live in...February everyone was shouting Be Kind...March they are bulk buying and fighting over pasta in supermarkets!!

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These last few weeks have been particularly hard, but I have genuinely found it easier now that I’m not watching the news, Twitter, FB etc. Because the amount of scaremongering that goes on is bollocks.  I’m going to take my chances with reading f📖 ck all and knowing **** all.  What is there to lose? 

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32 minutes ago, Swanny17 said:

These last few weeks have been particularly hard, but I have genuinely found it easier now that I’m not watching the news, Twitter, FB etc. Because the amount of scaremongering that goes on is bollocks.  I’m going to take my chances with reading f📖 ck all and knowing **** all.  What is there to lose? 

it is true ignorance is bliss, maybe we should all do this and make us a bit happier

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The last week or so has been a killer.    I've been and continue to be struggling badly.    Perhaps a compounding factor is the realisation that most people are in the same position,   while at the same time there are people who are utterly ignorant of the situation.     I think if one believes that they are in some kind of isolation in a bad place then help or support can be sought... but not the case now because so many others are badly affected.    At the same time there are people who appear determined to flout all the 'rules'.    Not observing the advice and blissfully untouched by it.

 

A combination of being lost in an ocean of horrendous concern... yet surrounded by morons.

 

Maybe we'll benefit from settling into a new normal after a while and hopefully some encouraging information in a couple of months.    Some degree of forecasted timescales.   

 

Let's all keep a light on for the heroes of the NHS.

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11 hours ago, Swanny17 said:

These last few weeks have been particularly hard, but I have genuinely found it easier now that I’m not watching the news, Twitter, FB etc. Because the amount of scaremongering that goes on is bollocks.  I’m going to take my chances with reading f📖 ck all and knowing **** all.  What is there to lose? 

I agree. One day last week i was feeling better and then realised it was because i had been busy and not on my phone. Was listening to audiobooks. 

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32 minutes ago, LeftBack said:

I agree. One day last week i was feeling better and then realised it was because i had been busy and not on my phone. Was listening to audiobooks. 


👍👍👍 Look after yourself bud. 

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Posted (edited)

I have not been able to be depressed. 

I am fully functional , keeping up to date.

 

I think mental welfare is the thing happening. 

Coping with the real, deep, global, situation. 

 

Edited by Zlatanable

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If anyone wants a chat pm me and i can phone. Admittedly my conversation is crap but lets not be alone at this time. Had major wobble this afternoon. 

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Folk im really struggling. Been so for a wee while. I can feel it the way it was before. Have scratched hell out back of neck. I don't want to worry family and partner. She is great but always stresses. Don't know who to turn to. Sorry!! 

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39 minutes ago, LeftBack said:

Folk im really struggling. Been so for a wee while. I can feel it the way it was before. Have scratched hell out back of neck. I don't want to worry family and partner. She is great but always stresses. Don't know who to turn to. Sorry!! 


just let it out on here , not one person will judge. I think every person who has posted on this thread has had problems and is here to help.  Without delving into the psychological reasons , can i ask if you are in shape , how your diet is , that kind of thing. Feel free to pm if you dont want to share here. 

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