rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 Stuck here like a prisoner Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merrymac Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 25 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: Stuck here like a prisoner Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crunchy frog Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 Ok I'll ask.... WTF are you talking about? Pub? Work? Jail? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
the Hearts way Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 Covid? Hope not! Onwards and upwards. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 I stay with my parents. My Dad would get on well with Adolf Hitler Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlimOzturk Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 Rudi, look after yourself old chap. You seem to be going through a tough time atm. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 3 minutes ago, AlimOzturk said: Rudi, look after yourself old chap. You seem to be going through a tough time atm. I have been doing some thinking and my family are all controlling types. They control my day every single day with activities I don't want to do. And are very disrespectful to me, I think I really need to cut most of them off Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GinRummy Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 5 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: I stay with my parents. My Dad would get on well with Adolf Hitler Had to move back in with my mum when I was about 35 and split up with my girlfriend. Wasn’t great. Stay strong mate 👍 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ri Alban Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 They're all probably trying to help you and all you do is give them grief. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 3 minutes ago, ri Alban said: They're all probably trying to help you and all you do is give them grief. I am nothing but nice to them. I've said that I'm f##### physically that's the way I'd put it. But I do what they want and I put on a brave face, my situation is a situation none of you will face, a world of pain and misery. But you know what I'd rather face it alone than be around people that patronise and belittle and pretend nothings happened Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
the Hearts way Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 15 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: I am nothing but nice to them. I've said that I'm f##### physically that's the way I'd put it. But I do what they want and I put on a brave face, my situation is a situation none of you will face, a world of pain and misery. But you know what I'd rather face it alone than be around people that patronise and belittle and pretend nothings happened You'll never be alone, you're part of Heart of Midlothian football club. You're family 👪 ❤. HHGH. Onwards and upwards 🙌 FTH Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
William H. Bonney Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 1 minute ago, the Hearts way said: You'll never be alone, you're part of Heart of Midlothian football club. You're family 👪 ❤. HHGH. Onwards and upwards 🙌 FTH **** the Hitler? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Morgan Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 I don’t think this is doing you any favours, Rudi. I may be wrong but, I reckon that folk are trying to help you and that you’re taking it the wrong way. Try to let them help you. Take care, man. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 9 minutes ago, Morgan said: I don’t think this is doing you any favours, Rudi. I may be wrong but, I reckon that folk are trying to help you and that you’re taking it the wrong way. Try to let them help you. Take care, man. Done the whole therapy waste of time. I just want to make money from eBay and live off that Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sharpie Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 32 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: I am nothing but nice to them. I've said that I'm f##### physically that's the way I'd put it. But I do what they want and I put on a brave face, my situation is a situation none of you will face, a world of pain and misery. But you know what I'd rather face it alone than be around people that patronise and belittle and pretend nothings happened Be careful what you wish for we I am convinced all suffer pain and misery at some time in our life be it family problems, job problems, bereavement, I am coming in fact out of a period of pain and misery I would have given much to have had people I thought close to come and ease my particular loneliness. My heroes are my son, and the guys right here on JKB, also a man I last saw sometime in 1955 when we concluded our military service after having joined on the same day. How you deal with your problems is your business, I can say though when I lost my parents, sister, daughter I always had my wife for support, never consider it a good idea to face things alone, remember the adage "No man is an island. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cruyff Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 43 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: I am nothing but nice to them. I've said that I'm f##### physically that's the way I'd put it. But I do what they want and I put on a brave face, my situation is a situation none of you will face, a world of pain and misery. But you know what I'd rather face it alone than be around people that patronise and belittle and pretend nothings happened How come bud? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Psychedelicropcircle Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 1 hour ago, rudi must stay said: I have been doing some thinking and my family are all controlling types. They control my day every single day with activities I don't want to do. And are very disrespectful to me, I think I really need to cut most of them off Surname fritzel by any chance😀 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 13 minutes ago, Cruyff said: How come bud? Because I have had medical errors done to me over the past few years Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cruyff Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 7 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: Because I have had medical errors done to me over the past few years In what way? What's wrong with you? Do you have a disability? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 13 minutes ago, Cruyff said: In what way? What's wrong with you? Do you have a disability? No but close it to got no strength anymore Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dicksojo Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 You mentioned that the x rays took away your strength? Have the doctors explained how this happened? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Morgan Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 22 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: Because I have had medical errors done to me over the past few years Are you saying that the three x-rays you had have taken away your strength? I’m sorry, Rudi, but I don’t understand how that could possibly have happened. There surely has to be something else to it? Were there other ‘medical errors’ too? I’m genuinely trying to understand what has happened here. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cruyff Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 3 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: No but close it to got no strength anymore It sounds shit mate, is there anyway that we could help you? What's your major issue here? You can get back to a good place mate, mentally and physically but you obviously need help to do it and a willingness yourself to do it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Morgan Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 2 minutes ago, Cruyff said: It sounds shit mate, is there anyway that we could help you? What's your major issue here? You can get back to a good place mate, mentally and physically but you obviously need help to do it and a willingness yourself to do it. That’s what I’d call good advice, Johan. 👍 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 14 minutes ago, Morgan said: Are you saying that the three x-rays you had have taken away your strength? I’m sorry, Rudi, but I don’t understand how that could possibly have happened. There surely has to be something else to it? Were there other ‘medical errors’ too? I’m genuinely trying to understand what has happened here. No just the x-rays Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dicksojo Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 Just now, rudi must stay said: No just the x-rays What else? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlimOzturk Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 Why did you have the X Rays Rudi. Have you been suffering with some sort of condition that the doctors had you doing X Rays to find out the cause? Do you feel the X Rays have made these conditions worse? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vlad Magic Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 There is nothing wrong in asking for help? Ask and it will be given? There is also nothing wrong whatsoever in admitting you need help. Everyone needs help. It’s impossible to go through life without at some point saying “you know what I need help with this”. That may be with a financial matter, a private matter, a health issue, how to wire a plug correctly. Help by its very definition “helps”!!! We all have different skills, experience, knowledge, strengths. We also all have weaknesses. This my friend is what makes us all different and why we have different hair colour, skin colour, personalities, backgrounds and beliefs. I guarantee you can do things I can’t and I also guarantee I can do things you can’t. No 2 people are the same. The point I am trying to make is whatever is affecting you right now could be unique to you but more than likely has been encountered by countless others however unless you tell us exactly what’s going on in your head myself or anyone else here can’t advise you or help you unless you let it out and tell us? So my advise is stop with all these cryptic posts. Stop dancing around the issue and tell it straight? What is going on? If you don’t wish to disclose it here then fine I respect that and it’s sounds very personal. However someone needs to hear what it is. It sounds like family aren’t the answer so possibly someone close to you outside the family circle? A best friend? Whatever it is you are not alone. People can and will help. Talking about it directly and honestly is the first step. PM me if you want to talk privately. I have no qualified experience however I am a good listener. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Morgan Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 1 hour ago, rudi must stay said: No just the x-rays Sorry again, I’m still not understanding. How can three x-rays, things we have all had (probably numerously) in our lives have caused all this? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Morgan Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 1 hour ago, dicksojo said: What else? This short, two word post, is important to this thread. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
boredwaitin Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 I came home from 4 years working in the middle east to be greeted by a phone call on Christmas eve in Heathrow Airport from my wife saying she was leaving me. Spent Christmas and New year alone , partly my fault as I was devastated and lost the plot so hit the drink and didn't want to be around any one. I feel your pain and understand what your going through, I know I need help like you but right know I don't want help. Chin up mate , things will get better for everyone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 30 minutes ago, Morgan said: Sorry again, I’m still not understanding. How can three x-rays, things we have all had (probably numerously) in our lives have caused all this? They have built up for me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 12, 2022 Author Share Posted January 12, 2022 1 hour ago, AlimOzturk said: Why did you have the X Rays Rudi. Have you been suffering with some sort of condition that the doctors had you doing X Rays to find out the cause? Do you feel the X Rays have made these conditions worse? I had aches and pains and have been losing weight Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Taffin Posted January 12, 2022 Share Posted January 12, 2022 I don't know what else to say to you other I wish I could help you feel better and I hope that you do feel better with time. Even if it's for them rather than you, try not to push your family away...I'm sure they only want what's best for you even if you find their way of showing it hard to deal with. It doesn't mean much maybe, but if you feel you can, do reach to someone on here. They might only be able to listen but it may be a weight off your shoulders. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FWJ Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 I don’t know for sure RMS, but I think your family (and doctors) want the best for you - as unlikely as that may feel for you. I also think there are many strangers who might try to take advantage of your current anguish. Please be very careful and all the best. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Taffin Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 8 hours ago, FWJ said: I don’t know for sure RMS, but I think your family (and doctors) want the best for you - as unlikely as that may feel for you. I also think there are many strangers who might try to take advantage of your current anguish. Please be very careful and all the best. Also very sage advice. Look after yourself rudi. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Harry Potter Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 10 hours ago, rudi must stay said: I had aches and pains and have been losing weight Go to your doctor, maybe slight anxiety, depression, certainly open up to the doctor. Take care bud. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 13, 2022 Author Share Posted January 13, 2022 50 minutes ago, Harry Potter said: Go to your doctor, maybe slight anxiety, depression, certainly open up to the doctor. Take care bud. Only thing a want from them is £100,000 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hughesie27 Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 (edited) 14 minutes ago, rudi must stay said: Only thing a want from them is £100,000 Will 100k give you your strength back? Whats your long term plan here. Post cryptic stuff on KB with half cries for help and the other half vague descriptions about what is wrong with you? Unless you are willing to share with us the full story about where you were years ago and what is happening now then nobody is going to be able to help you here. People on KB aren't here to pick sides so you should take it seriously when multiple people have told you that what's actually likely to be happening is that your family are trying their best to keep your spirits up and help you not get stuck in a rut sitting infront of a computer all day feeling sorry for yourself. It's common to think the worlds against you (even this post by me) when you are mentally ill. Try and think of how you would look after a family member if they were going through what you are. Edited January 13, 2022 by hughesie27 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cheetah Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 Hard to help here, but will give it a go anyway. I think the first thing you need to do is accept that what you are feeling is nothing to do with the 3 x-rays as there is no way you will have exceeded any limits on radiation received which is around 100mSv a year, which equates with something like 10,000 chest x-rays or 20 CT scans. Once you can accept this then there is a chance to move on and feel better, looking to blame the NHS and get compo is probably not helping you in any way. Trust that family and friends are probably looking out for you and not working against you. try another therapist as the one you had obviously didn't work for you. Take care Rudi. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Der Kaiser Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 I've had X Ray's all through my younger years for tracking my Scoliosis before my operation when I was 12 and had no ill effects. Just Ulcerative Colitis.....and Depression....bit of Rosacea ......and possible onset of Primary Sclerosing Cholangitis......and two ingrown toenails. Comic books told me I'd get super powers......Stan Lee was such an arsehole. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 13, 2022 Author Share Posted January 13, 2022 42 minutes ago, Lord BJ said: I kind of agree with this and your last line is a excellent piece of advice. Something people in general should apply more to their life. I’ll be honest, I’m not sure this is a genuine ‘cry for help’ as opposed to someone getting their internet jollies. Either way I suggest the OP goes and talk to a doctor or similar. The fact that OP thinks his parents want anything but the best for them, demonstrates they are not thinking clearly. No internet fun had by me here. Life is a nightmare. What would the money give me? It would give me a bit of the old fashioned revenge Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dazo Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 1 minute ago, rudi must stay said: No internet fun had by me here. Life is a nightmare. What would the money give me? It would give me a bit of the old fashioned revenge Would you not rather be healthy ? Revenge is a waste of energy and won’t end the suffering you’re talking about. Regardless I think it may be mental exhaustion rather than physical as I’m not sure it is possible for x rays to cause what you describe. Maybe it’s that reason you can see clearly that those around you are trying to help. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ray Gin Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 What type of x-rays were they, CT scans? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Armageddon Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 (edited) 16 hours ago, rudi must stay said: I stay with my parents. My Dad would get on well with Adolf Hitler If only Hitler went after Tories. Stick in there bud. Edited January 13, 2022 by Armageddon Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 13, 2022 Author Share Posted January 13, 2022 (edited) 9 minutes ago, Ray Gin said: What type of x-rays were they, CT scans? Both 2 x-ray one CT Edited January 13, 2022 by rudi must stay Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Robbies right hand man Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 1 hour ago, rudi must stay said: Both 2 x-ray one CT Can you possibly give a full detailed post, rather than just a few cryptic messages? I think people will be better placed to give you some advice then. Otherwise it’s a pointless endeavour to make vague comments on here. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 13, 2022 Author Share Posted January 13, 2022 3 minutes ago, Robbies right hand man said: Can you possibly give a full detailed post, rather than just a few cryptic messages? I think people will be better placed to give you some advice then. Otherwise it’s a pointless endeavour to make vague comments on here. I went to the doctor in 2016 he said I should get one so I went. I went to the doctor in 2017 he said I should get one so I did. I then left it a few years and went back in April 2020 because I wasn't feeling right so I went to the hospital and got a CT Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jambo89 Posted January 13, 2022 Share Posted January 13, 2022 Perhaps, and I am only guessing here through the limited information you've provided, but the issues are in your head, not your body, hence why you have been to therapy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rudi must stay Posted January 13, 2022 Author Share Posted January 13, 2022 5 minutes ago, jambo89 said: Perhaps, and I am only guessing here through the limited information you've provided, but the issues are in your head, not your body, hence why you have been to therapy. No that's wrong Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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